I don't even know what to say about this year really. We've already gone from this
in just seven months.
Things are different now than I anticipated they'd be this time last year. I'm different. Juniper is different than I thought she'd be (for starters, she's a girl, and that kind of threw me for a loop). She's different mostly because there was no way that I could know how amazing she would be, how much she would challenge me to be a better version of myself, and how I'd see how much I still need to learn.
Juniper was baptized yesterday. It was something I wasn't entirely sure we were going to do, but I am glad that we did. There are windows behind the alter of the church, and snow started falling during the service. It was beautiful. It was also a reminder of how fleeting our time on this earth is, and how fragile we all are. In the homily, the priest spoke about our responsibility to the earth and to all of the creatures who live here. This year has been hard, but I think it is important to constantly remind myself that I am only one small cog in the great machine of the universe, and my most important work here, really, is to first do no harm, and next try to make things maybe just a little bit better than they were before.
We are all stewards of the earth and its creatures. Every time we go on a hike, I wonder how different the landscape will be when Juniper is old enough to really remember the experience. Whether she'll be able to snowshoe out the back door of our house when she is old enough. How many more people and houses there will be dotting the landscape when she's an adult.
I don't have any resolutions this year, but I maybe have some thoughts on how I'd like to see things go from here on out. Cheers to 2013, friends.